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[flashystyle]

●●○○○ THESA

Dorian Pavus
@sparkler (33), Tevinter, Thedas

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I WAS A: Incredibly privileged know-it-all with a family complex. I got better.

I'M SKILLED IN: Talking about myself excessively. Calling everyone names. Also, some magic and archiving.

I'M LOOKING FOR: A way to stop feeling so helpless in the absence of home.

ALSO, I'M: Very tired. All the time.

Comments

[vorrutyer]

I'm not sure I see the logic. I'm to be angry with you for something they did?

[flashystyle]

You know that isn't what I mean, Byerly. I don't expect you to be angry.
I'm sorry we weren't there sooner. We could have done something more. We could have done something better. We didn't.

[vorrutyer]

You know what I do back home, dear Dorian. My profession of choice. Yes?

[flashystyle]

A poor choice, but yes. I do.

[vorrutyer]

If things go truly cockeyed there, no one will come. You came. And risked quite a lot in doing so, if I don't miss my mark.

[flashystyle]

Risk doesn't matter. It was the right thing to do. But that doesn't excuse the fact it was done poorly. You shouldn't have been out for so long, some of them shouldn't have died, all of you should have been in one fucking piece.
We went to the wrong place for crying out loud. It's fucked, Byerly. All of this is fucked and spoon feeding you fucking groats wouldn't even begin to cover making up for it.

[vorrutyer]

Dorian, I don't give a shit.

[flashystyle]

Well maybe you should.

[vorrutyer]

[ Byerly rubs his mouth, and takes a breath, and responds: ]

Would it make you feel better if I did?

[flashystyle]

It'd give me some peace of mind that you feel something. Yes.

[vorrutyer]

And how do you envision my anger? How do you think I should be angry?

[flashystyle]

How do I envision your anger? Quiet. Seething. Simmering below the surface while you think of every sort of revenge you can take on a person—because you certainly know them well enough to do so—until it boils over into the final result. Or something else equally unhealthy.
How I envision it, however, isn't the point. You should just be angry. You should just. Care. That you nearly died.

[vorrutyer]

And blame you for it.

[flashystyle]

And blame me for it.

[vorrutyer]

If all you want is for me to be worked up, then why does the target of my anger matter?

[flashystyle]

Because you deserve better.

[vorrutyer]

Better than what?